My Three Sons

“The greatest gift I’ll leave this world when my life is done…my three sons.”

I wrote the words to this song years ago, before Charli even came along. I had no idea that all too soon, I would witness firsthand the legacy that one of my three sons would leave this world.

The outpouring of love from so many, the throes of people at his celebration of life and the killer after-party, the stories that continue to touch my heart and make me proud to be his mom…all a reflection of Chandler. He was the kind of human being you want your kids to become.

Oh, I miss him. I can’t say how much. There aren’t words for that. Maybe tears say it better. Maybe within each tear, there are a million words that describe the depth and color and feel of this loss exquisitely. If this is so, an epic novel dampens my cheeks, my pajamas, the pile of tissues on the table.